AGATA TERESA SINIARSKA

mujer demoníaca DEMONIC WOMAN

METAPHYSICAL MADNESS

Yesterday one of the reporter of Hola! Magazine found himself behind the waredrobe in Siniarska's attic, observing her metaphysical madness:

Heterosexsual relationship with a man is a shopping center! Only consumption, production of love! That we – women are a production line for men! Can I consume you, please? The shopping center where the love is produced by social practices economically orientated. All services that are offered are very attractive at first glance. And true! All of them are so true, so real, feelings that are delivered to me and their personal involvment. FUCK IT!

Somehow this model is not covered with this promise of happiness in my life plans, that I had before.

I was cheating myself definitely too long but my desires are regulated by mens heterosexual manipulation that they called female subjectivity. I can't believe! But, yes, that's true...ahhh...everything becomes so complex, what is love and where is it wandering...this becomes so COMPLEX! That you have to enter this complexity! To get something out of love! No, men's love is not normal!

„Love me woman, that's what I need looking at myself in the mirror” and voila – you have your relationship.

Shut up!

„You must have personal relation towards me and that's why I can put into realization my heterosexual desires!”

I loved, I loved them fiercely, like a lion, I loved them truely and what? Fuck, I even still love. And what?

Antonioni – absolutist of self-love, and self-indulgence, believing that open-relationship means open-minded

Tarkovsky – oscilation between perversion and classicism

Bardem - unfulfilled promises of life in itself

Enough! From now on I play only in Leni Riefenstahl's movies, even if it's against the feelings towards my country.

Heterosexual men. Gang of manipulators. Shouting only – love me love me love me love me if I don't love you love me if I'm not engage in, I'm not here and there. Love me because I won't do it. Love me above all and involve in this love all your life and all your feelings! Not me, just you because you are the fucking woman and women here HAVE TO PLAY THE ROLE OF BEING INVOLVED!

Everyone wants from me personal involvement, real me. Everyone wants from me everything like I would be a box of christmas wishes.

Love and be loyal to this love! Love me with your real love! AND WHERE ARE MY NEEDS!?!

This is what men want, that I will be truly involved in love to them, to heterosexual relationship, that I will be in my feelings real.

Fine, so I prefer to be artificial!

And what? Does any Blade Runner control if my personal life is sacrified to love? Does he control if my involvement is real? In this shopping center? Ok, great, let him to come here! Let Blade Runner or any personnel manager or sales manager comes here and then we see! We see if the feelings performed by me are enough huge for men's ego, or not! And why Blade Runner cannot come here to check men!?! No! Because he's also a man!

Perform huge feelings towards your man! AND DON'T EXPECT THAT HE WILL WORRY ABOUT YOUR NEEDS! Life is short baby, come back to your production line!

Men! Conquistadors! All of you are like primitive cattle with this difference that theoretizied your heterosexual primitivism, you make women believe this is the only philosophy. But your philosophy is a humbug, intelectual shortcuts of Papuans. Nietzsche – impotent, life philosopher for slouches, wishful to drug themselves by anything, any trash, helpless towards women's power. Lacan who deprived us of pleasure.

Men, liberalism and SNDO, all of them want me to be engaged for nothing, not even for KISS MY ASS but I don't want to be like that.

Actually I'm not agressive at all.

No, I'm not! As a matter of fact, I'm a very nice girl!

I'm a very nice, quite nice technology connected to electric cables. To feel strong love, to feel real involvement towards a man! I really don't know what to do with this shit. And suddenlly these fractions appear and I must feel strong love again, show my involvement towards men!

Heterosexual relationship killed me. Surounded by crowds of admirers that didn't give me anything. Promises are not avant-garde enough! Be my ephemerical godness! To run away from them I hit the headlines on Vogue covers. There everyone could have me and I didn't feel it at all. Yes!

My destiny won't be weighted on the spoon when man doesn't like the soup.

I'm inteligent, extraordinary, beautiful and almighty. I am the fact positive. I create in steel like any minimalist. I sit to grand piano and play like the most talented musician. I create such a combinations of tones! Compering to this Grosse Fugue is just a simple piece for four hands. I'm dialectician. I am philosopher and still good Christian.

I'm not afraid of death.

I don't believe in physics. This is just a mathematic schema of grasping phenomenon for men's simple brains. Simple brains that stucked on the border of the possibility to create mataphysics. But life has no borders. Life is not a shopping centre offering services men's love economy and I will cross these borders. I will grab the life once again. I will not capitulate, even to myself.

Fake it utill you make it!

Truth, truth, does anybody notice that truth has a structure of fiction?

Woman as lover, woman desiring, my real symbolic title! Well - kiss my ass! I challenge it! I call it into question! Down with prosthesis-phalluses.

I need to save myself from this what/who I desire!

I don't want men's love anymore! I WANT TO HAVE A DOG!

to be continued

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AMORES PERROS

It looked like Agata Siniarska, after her leaving the hospital stopped having any contact with Russian mystic Nastasja Filipowna Yefimovich, a granddaughter of Grigori Rasputin. She was constanly been seen in Voldenpark in Amsterdam, embraced by her life partner Javier Bardem, eating crema de zapallo with cottage cheese. Nothing more mistaken.

Few days ago reporter of Hola! Magazine overheard the conversation between Siniarska and Bardem:

DRAMATIS PERSONAE –

Javier Bardem [ B ]
Agata Siniarska [ S ]

B: why are you seeing these people? what are they doing to you?
You promised, you promised not to see this woman anymore.
[ impatient wheeze ]
You're killing me.
I can forgive you once, twice but ten times in one month!
[ nervously fanning himself ]
Tell me, don't cut,

A: [ silent as a grave ]

B: [ almost shout ] don't make it postdramatic!

A: [ silent as a tomb ]

B: my existence with you is a dream, waiting that you will come and kiss me.
Waiting - as an existence above the time of existence. Why I have to work so hard!

A: [ silent as a tomb of the unknown mute]

B: [ making clear gesture with a straight middle finger of his right hand ] You're not a fallen hero!

A: [ silent as a tomb of the two mutes....sleeping ]

B: [ with a renunciation in a voice ]
Unfortunatelly the water forced my body. And I need to drawn.
On this beautiful holy land the tiger devours the lamb.
I cannot help myself. I suffer from the things, even these things that are not conected with my suffering.
This is not a country for Spanish men.

Following this trace Hola! Magazine discovered terrifying facts of Siniarska's life.

After leaving the hospital Siniarska becomes more and more engaged in the experiments of Nastasja Yefimovich. Together there were penetrating mysteries of telepathy and psychokinesis. Soon Siniarska becomes one of the main mediums during Yefimovich sessions. Going after the desire miss Siniarska started to make experiments by herself in her flat in Amsterdam.

Chronicle of a Death Foretold

Crónica de una muerte anunciada

Yesterday at night Agata Siniarska was taken by ambulance to the The Onze Lieve Vrouwe Gasthuis (OLVG) hospital on the hospital ward - Heart Centre with cardiothoracic surgery and intervention cardiology.

The consultant didn't want to give any information, noone from the reporters was allowed to come to the building.

Her life partner, Javier Bardem also refuses to answer any question.

Bardem in front of the hospital in Amsterdam.

Obviously this accident is connected with the spiritual experiments Siniarska was practising lately with Russian mystic Nastasja FilipownaYefimovich ( woman with the beard ), granddaughter of Grigori Rasputin with who she was planning her summer pilgimage to Siberia.

Siniarska on the clandestine meeting with the group of Nastasja Filipowna followers.

SINIARSKA - TARKOVSKY

SECOND MEETING – SECOND MOVIE

Agata Siniarska and Andrej Tarkovski will meet again on the set of director's new movie.

We are both from the East, the same poor mentality, the same unbearable nature, the same element of feelings. -said Tarkovsky

The filming will start this year.

Before that Siniarska decided to make a lonely pilgrimage to Siberia:

Since one month I had one repeated dream in which I sit with Michelangelo in the attic of our house talking till dawn, as we used to do. And always in the certain moment of conversation, at 4:47, our voices dissipate, the words become complicated diagrams which don't distribute expressions and contents but deteterritorialized them, through which we are trapped, desperately trying to find substance of communication. And everytime when I feel I'm close to find it, to grab it, Antonioni is standing behind me saying – „you always need to win Agata, you cannot live without it, it's the essence of your identity, without it the question „who?” will simply not arise”.

This was our last conversation and cannot stop thinking that he passed away with this thought about me, without any credit of trust in me and my feelings. I loved him with all my heart and if our togetherness in the last months was so sad is because we stopped noticing how precious our love is, we sank into past mistakes and couldn't enjoy presence. No matter where is he now, I hope that he reformulated this idea about Agata, he stopped meditate on past difficulties and he started to believe like me now that people can change, and that sometimes things are different than they look like.

This is how Siniarska is explaining her shooking decision of a journey.

I am very sad. The last performance I took part in called „sad libitum” was sad, Tarkovsky's scenario seems also sad. I need time for reflection, for silence, that's why I decided to spend the whole summer on Siberia, walking through the snow with russian bears. I going to take one coat, winter shoes, book "Deleuze and Guattari for pilgrims and other machines", termo blanket, lighter, package of djarum cigarettes, gun and bottle of martini bianco.

Siniarska plannes her trip after the evaluation of her academic year in SNDO. If she comes back, the filming will start on September this year.

AGATA SINIARSKA

Best Actress Award Prix d'interpretation feminine at the 64th Cannes Film Festival 2011

This is the day of my big happiness. Happiness that unfortunately is shared with huge sadness, because Michelangelo Antonioni is not here with me today and he will not be anymore -confessed Siniarska while receiving the prize.

CANNES

A Chronicle of Amorous Incidents

On Friday Agata Siniarska came to Cannes directly from Basel where she was performing on dance festival evi/Danse/LE FESTIVAL in Delemont.

Miss Siniarska calmly appeared on the red carpet, welcomed by president of jury, Robert De Niro. Siniarska's modest appearance, very usual for her, has provoqued bursts of applause and media storm.

Agata Siniarska and president of jury, Robert De Niro.

It is still not known who this year will receive the Best Actress Award Prix d'interpretation feminine but Siniarska is bet on the winner.

She has already been honoured with Cannes award for the movie L'Avventura and was nominated for a main role in Metropolis. But given the history of surprises in Cannes, anticipating the verdict of the jury can be risky.

Miss Siniarska on the red carpet.

The storm was also caused by the gossips about her alleged relationship with Javier Bardem who appeared alone in Cannes two days before her.

Siniarska arrived at the hotel by herself, but in the evening she was caught on a quiet dinner in the company of Bardem.
Since then, rumors did not cease to persevere and press photographers were capturing the smallest moments of a couple, trying to spend them together.
Both asked they don't comment or evasively respond to questions with telling smile.

Siniarska and Bardem, together.

Especially Bardem's, whose X-ray was stolen a week ago from a private clinic in Barcelona, where the actor had his medical examination.

Stolen X-ray examination of Javier Bardem.

The result speaks for itself.

Cannes, 20^th May 2011

SINIARSKA WITH BARDEM?

Agata Siniarska, being in the mourning after death of her ex-partner, Italian director, Michelangelo Antonioni decided to take a break and shed tears in a company of fresh divorced actor Javier Bardem.

The couple arrived in Zaandvoort am Zee, close to Amsterdam and stayed there the whole weekend.

Hola Magazine claims the photos of them together on the beach confirm their romance. Both of them asked about it are avoiding any commentaries.

Last week has started the 64thFestival de Cannes, where Siniarska is nominated to the Best Actress Award. Media expected her arrival coming Friday. Very unlikely she’ll appear with Bardem at the event.